Sinking

The whole situation seems to be really sinking in this weekend. I knew it would. I knew this weekend would be hard for me to get through. I'm glad I had to work both days, it kept me semi-distracted. People were coming in with hair like hers and I thought too many times that she had come in.

This feels like it was the longest week in history.

Sleep

Can't sleep now, my brain is too active. I haven't cried since Tuesday and I think I need to. I can feel it coming on.

Hopefully if I let myself cry I'll be able to get to sleep sooner.

I feel so tired all the time now, it's horrible. I don't think I've been sleeping well since Sunday.

I just feel so grateful to have my friends around me at times like this. Don't know what I would have done without them. I'd probably just have not left my room.

I hate this

Since Monday I have not been able to talk to the person that I most want to talk to. I have no idea how long I should wait before I can talk to her again. I'm not even sure if she ever wants to talk to me again. I hate not knowing what she is feeling at the moment, but most of all I just hate not talking to her. Listening to what happened to her during her day was the best part of my day. I miss everything about her.

I hate this so much.