Christmas

I've really been feeling lonely the past few days. The Christmas period would be hard, I knew that. Especially since there were the traditional family drinks yesterday that I was hoping to have someone to bring to for the first time. That felt like crap. Still being alone while my younger cousins are bringing their other halves. I hate it. It makes me miss her more than I have in a while. I've been thinking about her less and less since we haven't been talking a lot. But the past few days have been filled with thoughts of her. Wondering and wondering.