We haven't spoken in about 5 days. After having a fairly serious and open conversation I thought that I left the ball in her court. However it seems that either she doesn't see it that way (unlikely) or she simply does not want to talk to me (extremely likely).
I am not sure what to do in this situation. I'm inclined to tell myself that it is time to move on but it's hard to do that when I haven't gotten the definite answer I need. I want for her to tell me that there is no chance that we will be getting back together but she hasn't been able to give me that yet. I need to hear that so I can stop waiting, hoping and thinking about her. Or at least try.
Nights like these are so difficult because 1) it's the weekend and that's when we spent a lot of our time together and 2) I fear the news that she has met someone else. I know that she will find someone before I do. This fear that I have of hearing that she found someone makes me so sad and unhappy that I cannot sleep but for thinking about her with someone else.
Someone who can give her whatever it was that was missing.
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